I assembled a
pretty picture
of a girl
everybody wanted
but now I'm
feeling haunted.
Not sure it's
the one I wanted.
Not sure I
know what I mean
if you know
what I mean.
Maybe you tell me?
Or maybe not.
Maybe this time,
I will dump out
all the pieces
on the floor again.
Rearrange and
reimagine and
reassemble me again.
Not to be
an illusion,
a delusion, or
a pretty effigy.
But just to
be me.
[2024]
A walk past the mirror
shows how pretty she is
Wide wise eyes canopied
by the arch of her brow
rosy red lips
her heart-shaped face
framed by her long lustrous hair
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Who is the fairest of them all?
Looking glass shadows
the pain of her heart
Reflections of light hide
her feelings of dark
Bitter memories and
sour embraces
From men holding the body
untying the laces
Mirror sees the
beauty without
but is blind to the
darkness within
You only have to look
past the mirror.
[1996]
You were only supposed to be
Fresh meat for the night to me
But your mushroom cloud
Rose up in my starry eyes
And the world was the guise..
It was only you and I...
Stardust dancing in our eyes
Lust dripping between our thighs
It was only you and I
Reality dies and I float by
On your mycelium high...
All your addictions became mine
I breathed you in like 'doin a line
You undressed me of my armor
And promised to hold me always
But was just a holographic haze...
It was only you and I...
Stardust dancing in our eyes
Lust dripping between our thighs
It was only you and I
Reality dies and I float by
On your mycelium high...
Then I awoke spinning around
On this toxic merry-go-round
And swirling clouds of love and lies
Shrouded the stardust once in our eyes
Were we or Reality the guise?
Was it
cosmic
twin flame
kismet?
Or just
another
kink neon
'shroom trip?
It was only you and I...
Stardust dancing in our eyes
Lust dripping between our thighs
It was only you and I
Reality dies and I float by
On your mycelium high...
[2022]
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped.
In a locked box of steel
With deadbolts held fast
Can't move at all
And I scream and I scream
But I am locked in the walls
Of this tight steel box
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped.
Like bricks on my back
All this stress weighs me down
Can't breathe at all
And I scream and I scream
But I'm crushed beneath
All these bricks on my back
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped.
Tits and ass in a mirror
A straight-jacket of beauty
Can't speak at all
And I scream and I scream
But I'm muted behind
this pretty type-cast facade
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped.
Trapped…
[1998]
I was drawn to you
There was nothing I could do
I was drawn to you
I know you felt it too
Eyes like an ocean
Drowning me with their gaze
A kiss like a potion
That left me in a haze
I knew I knew you, the second that we touched
You knew you knew me, as tight my hand you clutched
We said we shouldn't, as if fire won’t burn the log
We said we wouldn't, as if dawn won’t bring the fog.
I was drawn to you
There was nothing I could do
I was drawn to you
I know you felt it too
Flip it tails or heads
Always landed on you
Count the miles, years, and beds,
One indelible fact was true
I knew I knew you, the second that we touched
You knew you knew me, as tight my hand you clutched
We said we shouldn't, as if stars won’t light the sky
We said we wouldn't, as you slowly parted my thigh...
I was drawn to you
There was nothing I could do
I was drawn to you
I know you felt it too
My heart knew a truth
That I could not deny:
My magnetic North Is you
On that I can rely
I knew I knew you, the second that we touched
You knew you knew me, as tight my hand you clutched
We said we shouldn't, as if strength was left in me
We said we wouldn't, another lie we feign believe.
I was drawn to you
There was nothing I could do
I was drawn to you
I know you felt it too
We are magnets
Twin magnets
We are magnets
Twin magnets
and no matter where I go
no matter what I do
I am always pulled back to you.
[2009]
Don't listen to a word they say
They live out of fear anyway
From behind the pulpit lies are spread
His name means peace and life
They all have said
But their hands are red
And their souls are dead
With rituals and fear they all are fed
That's why I fucking fled
Fuck all the prophets who say they've seen
Visions and angels in their dreams
Well tell me prophet, what does it mean
When I've never seen a fucking thing
But their hands are red
And their souls are dead
With rituals and fear they all are fed
That's why I fucking fled
Just believe
Just believe
Just believe
Believe and you will see
A goddamn fallacy
Yes their hands are red
And their souls are dead
With rituals and fear they all are fed
That's why I fucking fled
Yes that’s why I fucking fled.
[2004]
Twenty-one
Diapers and
Phone calls and
Shopping malls
Snuff out the
One decent
Afternoon
We could use
To be free
Like the birds
We once were
Could we leave
All this mess
And drop the
To-do lists
Today?
Because
Twenty-one
Years go by
In a blink
Of an eye
So they say.
[2004]
